Si Vales, Valeo
So, you want me to interpret your dream/vision. I am afraid that is a tall order. You should learn how to do this for yourself, since that is where the answers are. I will give it a shot since it would serve as a good example for others that may read this about the Qabalah and one of its many uses in puzzle solving.
The most revealing element of your vision was a two-dimensional square suspended in the air. The square was black but had white lines making nine segments or sections within the square. You say that the square was visible from the upper left corner of your eyes, and that it moved with your vision: always remaining on the upper left corner of your periphery.
Binah on the Tree of Life is at the upper left corner. Its color is black. It represents The Mother archetype and it is ruled by Saturn, a slow moving but aggressive planet. Astrologers fear it, but unjustly so. She teaches lessons like moms do. Often times by grabbing you by the ear and taking you where you are supposed to be. Her name is “Understanding,” which is a lot different than wisdom, her counterpart. Knowledge implies intimacy. More like applied wisdom. A sort of gnosis.
The “god name” associated with Binah is Elohim, which is a rather strange term for a Hebrew word, since it is a plural noun for “gods” or “deities” in Biblical Hebrew. The “-im” at the end of the word indicates a masculine plural. As to infer more than one god.
If you were to look her up in the Qabalah section of my The Heretic’s Guide to Thelema Vol. 1 you would see that her Qamea (magical square) is made up of the following components:
Place on the Tree of Life = 3d Sephiroth
Number of cells in the Qamea = 9
Numerical constant = 15
Sum of all numbers = 45
It looks something like this:
Curiously (or not so curious), the numerical constant is a wink-wink, nudge-nudge to the 15th trump in the Tarot deck: The Devil, which represents Capricorn and is ruled by… you guessed it, Saturn. It represents the idea of regeneration via the union of opposites. For example, take to opposing ideas, reconcile them and you have a third idea which independent from the original two, but contains their qualities.
Note: I prefer the Aleister Crowley deck, but I feel that beginners should start with the Rider Waite, or better yet the color yourself BOTA deck to familiarize themselves with the meaning of the cards, the colors, symbols and other correspondences.
The gesture Baphomet makes is an illusion of materialism. It is as though it is saying “There is nothing more than this.” It seduces with physical pleasures and material wealth to prevent spiritual advancement. To prevent looking beyond the veil of illusion, being owned by ones material wealth rather than the other way around. These are problems often encountered by Capricorns or people with strong Saturnine influence in their charts. It is also significant that the Hebrew letter associated to this card is Ayin, or “eye,” probably because the early Hebrew is an oval with a dot on the middle. Therefore, the meaning of the letter is watch, know, shade (or conceal). This will make more sense as you read on.
Furthermore, The Devil card is on the path between Hod, which is Mercury and symbolic of intellect and science, and Tiphareth, which is where one achieves Union with The Beloved. So the card appears to inform us of the dangers of materialism to our spiritual life. Perhaps the solution to this dilemma is embodied in the Tarot card The Lovers, which connects Binah (the mother) to Tiphareth (The Son). But then I would have to write another book since all of these elements are connected via the map of The Tree of Life.
Also, on The Devil Card, notice the man and woman chained to its altar. Pay close attention to the shackles. They are lose around their necks indicating that this bondage (for lack of a better term) is voluntary. There is so much more I could say about this square and its numbers, but why should I ruin the experience for you? You seem to enjoy a good mystery, and I can tell you from experience the joy involved in solving them. If you need me, call on me again.
Now, none of this may have anything to do with anything. Only you can know if it does. I am just the messenger. Don’t shoot.
You have said you are ready to get serious about this work, so you will need to at least familiarize yourself with the basics. I recommend the following books and resources for beginners of the Hermetic Qabalah:
The Heretic’s Guide to Thelema Vol. 1 by Gerald del Campo
The Mystical Qabalah by Dion Fortune
Sefer Yetzirah by Aryeh Kaplan
Man and His Symbols by Carl Jung